128. 存在

Assalamualaikum. More than 17 months I've studied in KL. In that college, I learnt so many things. But I think I learnt about lose & losing the most. Pernah terfikir "apa salah aku sampai orang tinggalkan aku?". Aku pernah. Tapi mana jumpa jawapan dia? Ada dalam al-Quran sebenarnya. Minta maaf la aku tak letak beberapa tafsiran ayat kat sini sbb phone ni payah sikit. Tapi boleh cari. Banyak. Al-Baqarah ada. Lagipun, Allah lernah ckp, semua ni cuma pinjaman. So, termasuklah orang krang yg pernah ada dlm hidup ni. Sebenarnya, kita tak salah, orang yg meninggalkan pun tak salah. Salah siapa? Tuhan? Sudah tentulah lagi tak salah. Benda ni lumrah. Mcm pernah tulis dlm Arsonist Jalan Labrooy ((boleh tengok pos 124 (mungkin?)) yg refer kepada kehilangan. Kehilangan tu sebenarnya hadiah yg semua org akan terima dan beri. Ada juga tertulis dlm Langit Vanilla. "Ambil nota bahawa ini bukan soal siapa baik-siapa jahat, atau siapa betul-siapa salah. Ini soal pilihan, yg mana kita semua berhak. Jika kita tidak dipilih, bukan bermaksud dia yg sial atau kita yg sial. Ia bererti kita emas bagi orang lain." Aku setuju dengan tulisan Wani Ardy ni. Many people said, "biar orang buat kita, kita jgn buat orang." Aku dah follow semua tu. Tapi mungkin sampai masa utk condongkan sikit diri. Jgn lurus sgt. Sampai apa orang ckp semua terima. Semua dia betul. Yg salah semua kita. Cepat sgt mengalah. Dgn manusia mcm ni, kita kena main badminton dgn dia. Once dia smash, kita smash balik. Jgn kasi bola tanggung. Kalau asyik dia dpt point, mmg kita la yg kalah. Bila tiba masa di mana orang yg kau paling percaya pun sanggup tinggalkan kau macam tu je without any words, take same action. For me la. Don't need to explain because that person doesn't have any initiative to do so. Like one of my cyber brother once said (which I can't really remember but here a piece of it), "let them push you away, and jauhkan diri dari you. At least you don't have to throw them away because everything clean itself. And in the end, only the one who are willing to stay left." Dan aku percaya. Aku ada satu lagi exam besar. Kalau ada rezeki, insya Allah Mac depan fly. Nanti aku update lagi. Minta maaf. Assalamualaikum.

127.

Assalamualaikum. Orang kata, live life to the fullest. Recently, aku banyak nampak dan baca orang tulis "punya hati angkasa", "perempuan berhati angkasa" dekat bahagian profile. Aku tak berkata yang aku punya hati angkasa atau hati seluas laut sekalipun. Sebab aku tahu semua tu useless. Apa guna kau ada hati seluas angkasa atau sekecil zarah sekalipun tapi dalam hati tu kotor, penuh hitam kelam. Ataupun penuh dengan benda benda tak guna yang kita sibuk fikir just to please others. Useless. Baik aku punya hati sebesar genggaman tangan tapi penuh dengan kasih sayang dan rasa tenang. Tak penuh dengan benda benda bodoh dan rasa dengki kat orang lain. Kau tak rasa bazir ke ada hati besar angkasa tapi penuh tahi. Busuk la. So, kalau kau boleh pilih, nak jadi Blackhole atau Whitehole?

126.

"The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before." - ALBERT EINSTEIN

125. Refer to post 120 about Institut Bahasa Teikyo

Hello and assalamualaikum. So I'm kinda busy with my study, every week got test, if you don't pass the test, must repeat, so test, test, test, test. Ok what am I babbling. Refer to the title. But before that I would like to ask for apology to whoever anonymous who had comment on my 120 post. I'm sorry I am taking so long to answer your comments and to fulfill your will. The truth is, your comment didn't published because it went to spam box and just about 10 minutes ago I opened my spam box and found all those comments. I'm truly sorry. So what is it? Ok about IBT. My college. Japanese Language College. It is located somewhere very near to MidValley, just 10 minutes of walking. My college is in the Japan Club Of Kuala Lumpur. Ok that's all I know about the geography. Haha. Ok next. Their lecturers. They are Japanese. All of them. Yes, all of them. From the head to the lecturers, all are Japanese. So, it's a must for you to speak in Japanese language if you wish to have a conversation with them. So by that, my English and my BM getting broken from day to day. Hehe. Ok so schedule? I'm a full-time student so I just can explain about my course. Everyday. Monday to Friday, 8.50 a.m until 5.10 p.m is the lesson. For the start, you just have to learn hiragana and katakana. Their alphabet. And the start slowly making sentences. Simple sentence la. Spelling, writing. Simple thing. Because start level budak tadika. In my case, after about 2 or 3 months later, I started to learn KANJI. You know it is bolded? Because it's hard. Hahaha. Until now, I've learnt about 1000+ kanji. So after 4 months I think, Maths class started. Best. So, December last year, I've started Physics and Chemistry. Actually these subjects depend on what course you'll be taking. Art stream or science stream. Just like high school. As for me, I'm taking the science stream so that's why I learn Physics and Chemistry. If art stream, you'll learn something like geography and history. More to Japan history maybe. Oh ya. I forgot. Full-time course takes 20 months if I'm not mistaken. Because mine is 20 months (^_^)v For full-time course, what I know, the fee is about RM16000 for the whole course. Ok I hope this will help. If there's anything you want to ask, just email me at nsyahirahamri@yahoo.com Or you just go to teikyomy.com. Thank you :)

124. Kata Dari Kertas [2]

"Tak ada hidayah atau petunjuk dalam setiap kata. Ini bukan kitab, bukan nevi'im atau ketuvim.

Yang ada cuma separuh jalan hidup yang tak pernah habis tapi penuh dan cukup penuh dengan segala apa yang berada di bawah dan apa yang diludah. Tak perlu tutur kata dari pemikir agung untuk menjadi manusia.

Ambil apa yang pernah dipijak, letakkan di kepala. Dan akan kenal erti dunia."

"Kehilangan. Sebenarnya suatu hari nanti kita semua akan hadiahkan 'kehilangan' pada seseorang. Kau tak perlu kata kehilangan itu tidak adil. Masing masing akan terima, masing masing akan beri." -Arsonist Jalan Labrooy, Riduan A.Dullah-

123.

Assalamualaikum.

Kita ni patutnya bersyukurlah dengan apa yg kita ada, siapa yg ada dengan kita bila masa kita need someone. Kita kena bersyukur.

Dan kau, kalau ada crush dan kau dpt kawan dgn dia, dah cukup baik. Kau appreciate kewujudan dia dlm hati kau walaupun dia tak appreciate kau.

Dan kau, kalau ada kawan, cuba buat something yg boleh bagi faedah kat kawan tu. Kalau bukan faedah seumur hidup pun, sesingkat waktu pun jadi.

Dan kau, kalau ada strangers sekalipun buat something yg memberi effect pada kau, bersyukur. Kalau dia senyum, kau senyum. Kalau dia jeling sekalipun, kau senyum je. Anggaplah sedekah sebab kau tak rugi apa apa.

Dan lagi, bila masa kau rasa kau nak buat something untuk someone tapi kau ragu ragu, kau buang rasa ragu ragu dan buat apa yg kau nak buat. It's just one of the way to show yg kau appreciate orang. Buat je! Biar la orang lain nak kata apa pun. Kau tau niat kau dah cukup.

And just do anything you want. Because life is wonderful. And life is beautiful. Life is precious. Add the colours. Have a good life everyone.